Owned.

First thing and foremost... I have to laugh.
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA
OMG !!! AHAHAHAHAHAHHA LOOOOOOLLLLEEEERRRRRRRR !!!!
OOOMMFFFGG !!! LOOLLLLL !!! LLMMMFFAAAAOOO !! AHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAH
AAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHHA
AHAH
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HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA !!!!!!!! LMFAOOOOO !!! OMFGG !! I'M DYING !! LMFAO !!! AHAHAHAHAHAHAH !!

Sorry. I need Dia right now to laugh at this with me. But she's at the philippines... -_-' Gay. But I bet if she was here, she'd be laughing at this with me :) I'm so cool ahaha
So, anyway though, Angelo, five, good job (Y) !

Anyway, can't really take the credit for this ownage moment. But thank God ! THANK YOU LORD GOD ! THANK YOU !!! No lie, that's just.. WIN ! :) Love you <3

That's all.

Think like a champion.

No mercy. Kill the opposition, murder his family.
Do not leave anyone alive.
I will divide and conquer.
Break every mentality and rise up to the top.
Prove everyone wrong and be the only one standing.
And when I am at the top, I will not forget the ones that stuck through with me.
The brothers that I treat as my family, and the girls that are neither bitches or idiots.
I will come up as the winner, and the opposition...
Well, what opposition? They'll be left into extinction.
I will walk up the stage and I will get my award.
I will look at the nation that I have conquered.
I will look at my creation that I have invented.
And I will look at your face and see you all demented.
I will prove you wrong and you will see,
I am worthy of the greatest and I will crush the opposition with no mercy.

Well.. that's my new mentality. So, you don't fuck around :)
On the better note, I met four new people today?
3 chicks and 1 dude.
Karl's birthday party was so much fun.
Thank God I didn't miss it <3
Love you Karl :D

Lakers won. Not really that upsetting.

I am obliged to stay around and care. But, I will only stand by from the sidelines. Anything that doesn't kill you, makes you. And I will make sure, that this will make me better than ever.

How about something happy.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KARL !!!!

So, that's one for my loving man friend ;)
Let's go on a date. I'll buy you cavs ticket, courtside.
I wann see them lose aha.

There it goes again.

Sometimes, the most painful part of your life, is what makes you.
Sometimes, breaks you, but sometimes pushes you on something better.
The nudge that the world gives you, is the nudge that brings you closer to something that you deserve.
Patience, I have. Stupidity, I can and will not stand.

I care. I do care.
But the breaking of the borderline between conscience and personal gain, has only brought me to a lost cause.
Full of anxiety of the future, reminiscing of the past, and the idiotic present.

Now that my mind is analytically sophisticated, I shall say the words that only one has told me.

"Be not afraid. I go before you always. Come follow me. And I will give you rest."
- Jesus

And in Him, I shall trust.
Lead me to the path.

Reminders:

One. Gift.
Two. Live Show Tickets and Showtimes.
Three. Joshua 1:9

One more post for the day? LOL

When I had you to myself
I didnt want you around
Those pretty faces always made you
Stand out in a crowd
Then someone picked you from the bunch
One glance was all it took
Now its much too late for me
To take second look

(chorus)
Oh baby give me one more chance
To show you that I love you
Wont you please send me back in your heart

Oh darlin I was blind to let you go
But now since I see you in his arms
I want you back
Yes I do now
I want you back
Oo oo baby
Yeah yeah....naw....

Trying to live without your love
Is one long sleepless nights
Let me show you girl
That I know wrong from right

Every street you walk on
I leave tear stains on the ground
Following the girl
I didnt even want around
(chorus)

Abuh buh buh buh
All I want!
Abuh buh buh buh
All I need!
Abuh buh buh buh.....

Creativity in Subway

How about the lies and deceit that I have put myself in?
The fantasy that draws me in, and the force of the unknown that pushes me closer.
The lyrical and biblical signs, coincidentally right yet intimately wrong.
Stubbornness of the mind and the anxiety of the future,
Waiting for the breakdown of the borderline that keeps me away from you.
As if, grasping for the moment of heaven inside the mind of intricate pieces.
The peace for thoughts of wandering confusions and collisions
Lacking in the empty shell of a grave man.
Waiting for the right time of a creative intrusion,
Inside the very foundation of her sophistication
And penetrating the deepest part of her secret desires of unsatisfied passion.
Entering carefully in the depths of her cortex and landing the object of explosion.
Through sensual seduction of the thoughts
Going in and out and in and out and in and out of the grey matter
Embedded inside the beauty of her physicality with limitless desire of non-stop perseverance
To achieve the climax of an ecstasy lasting through an unlimited possibilities.
Taking only one of this infinite thoughts and only picking one, me in you.. and your thoughts.

In short, I'd like you with me.
Not, me and her or you and him.
Just, take them both out and keep the ones that matter.
You and I.

Late - Night Rambles.

Fuck niceness.

Reminder reader: I want you back :)

How bad, you ask?

I'm sorry I never had the chance to show this side of mine while we were together.

I didn't want to work hard. Though I did, it was limited.

Now, it's different. And I told you, amazing multiply that by the days of the year. Multiply that again by how much I want you back.
And then multiple how much i'd hate it if I don't end up getting you. And that's how amazing I'll be :)

Joshua 1: 9

Weirdest thing ever.
And I almost shit my pants.

Joshua 1: 9 : "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go. "

Oh my gosh. I am about to pass out.

See, I'm not the rule, I'm the exception.
Thanks to Him, He showed me that I am an exception.
I will keep doing this.

Written art work.

So, my reaaders or fans, if I have any, or I seem to imagine so LOL
I think it is time for me to show you guys a written work of art, other than Me, SINematic, and superEGOtron.
I am so enlightened from his presence, no lie.
He is so young, yet his artistic work of art through the mix of written words and letters is just amazing.
And I think you should check his blogspot out.

My black brother from another mother.
David Joseph.
http://djosephinthedream.blogspot.com/
If I say so myself, he is Dream.
His works are like reality intertwined in the stems of fantasy and dream.
It is amazing beyond measure.

Inspires me to write a poem aha.
I shall write one later on? :)

Edited: Written piece

I feel so enlightened by the words thrown out of the proportion.
As I looked up and around, all I see were little bits of portions..
Coincidential, and also analytical in both sides of the pendulum.
A passage I did not see, passage that took me off guard.
Only His words, I have heard ringing through my mind,
As I walked out of the door realizing that my life is on the bloom.
Signs of holy prophecy, I have translated.
From a name that I have tried to forget and a number that only meant one.

Kaboom.

The talks, the walks, the mishaps and the random events that will bring me everywhere.
They're all going to be my road to redemption as I walk this path.

Once again, I'm embarrassed to pull my phantom out.
Sooner than later, I hope I find it.

But I told you, you the fucking best.

And you can get it all.

:)

One more thinking.

What could be at the end of all this?
Could it be the treasure I've kept my eyes on.
Or will this road bring me to a different route?

Either way, I do hope that what's at the end of all this is worth the trouble.
If I could fix a computer, I wonder whatelse I can fix :)

Boost.

So, here's a funny thing. I thought to myself of how stupid this is, and I realized.
Im fucking amazing.
I fixed my computer !!
Let me say that again, I, JOHN DE GUZMAN, FIXED MY GOT DAMN COMPUTER !
Actually, this deserves my full name.
I, JOHN LEONARD CRISOSTOMO DE GUZMAN, FIXED MY COMPUTER !!
Yes, I !
Not YOU, or u, or some chinese way of saying you
It could be your last name or something.
But yeuh, I wann go home now.. and just get on my computer... LMAO

So on a better happier note, Snucks is back in business. Full time.
Anything and everything, I am here for you ;)

Anyone you need stalking, creepin on to, or just finding out shit. I am here for you :D
Call me ;) LOL 416 551 7983

Keep being amazing, self :)

Bamboozle.

Special words in the time of downfall.

I was thinking about this. If I were given a chance to change the way I acted or did things, I actually would. For the first time in my life, I am having regrets of the way that I acted. But somehow, I had to learn it the hard way.

Let me explain it from the start.
We weren't fond of each other, but we were close. We didn't like each other very well, but we did love each other.

We weren't similar in any way at all. We were different from each other, the exact opposite. She doesn't read, and I on the other hand, is close to a bookworm. She doesn't enjoy getting out and chilling by the beach or such and I do. And up until this point, I can't find any similarity that we had. Well, one, the fact that we wanted to work the relationship out. Despite these differences, we still enjoyed each other's company. Wait, we loved each other's company. Well, I still do.

And as I think back for something that I can do to get her back, I can't seem to find anything that would've made me stand out as a guy. Who was I? I was only a guy, whom, she talked to. A sweet guy, perhaps? I was there when she needed someone to lean on. I was just, that guy that actually wanted to listen to her. For all who knows, I was just a rebound. But I was there for her. And regardless of how we ended up with each other, I still took good care of her, with the very best of my ability.

I got to admit, I did feel exhausted, quite a few times. Somewhere in the beginning and somewhere in the end of the relationship. It was a lot of hard work for her and I.

But who was I before this? I was the player, and the guy who didn't take any girl seriously. And look at me, going crazy over a girl, an ex girl to make it worse. I don't run back to any of my ex girlfriends. I prove them wrong by going out with a better girl. I did go out with a few girls, though, not really "taking it seriously", but still tried to make it work and be the best man that I am. Don't get me wrong though, I still flirted behind their back, only due to the fact that I was a natural flirt. But it was different with her, I guess. I took her seriously, and did not see or talk to any other girl out there. On top of that, dropped any friend that I had whom wanted to talk to me. I basically held myself back to keep myself faithful and cut lose with any connection that I had with the world out there.

Blah, so where am I at right now?
The amazing karma kicking me in the ass. I'm in the position of A girl, that I broke up with, after about.. 10 months. She wanted me back, bad. To the eyes of other, I played her, right after we broke up. I, on the other hand, was just real confused with my feelings. But, I didn't do what an ex should've done in the first place, leave and do not deceive. Somehow, I'm in that situation.

So why did it take me about three months to realize what I wanted?
It took me so long to realize all this because I had to learn what I was missing, the passion. Now, the relationship got frustrating and exhausting. For every moment we see each other, one of us seem to be so exhausted with the way that we were going on. I guess, it was due to the fact that we both lived so far from each other. This kinda took me off guard and somehow, took her for granted. So, I had to get away. I had to find what I was missing. Was it just the phisicality? Sexual? Or was it the real passion behind it? The whole 2-3 months that I was gone in her life, I had some soul searching. Quite a few times, the soul searching involved some alcohol, sometimes some cigarettes and sometimes some other people involved. Yes, I tried to get over her. I tried talking to other girls, and even girls who wanted to go out wiht me before. But it was just.. different. It wasn't the same thing. My definition of "liking someone" became, "I like your company and I'm tryna get over someone, so I guess I like you". And it wasn't real. But these people actually helped me out realize what I was missing. I could have the best thing in the world, actually find the better girl out there just to prove her wrong, and have the best time in my life but it wouldn't have been the same thing.

Here's what everyone's been telling me:
"Why settle for the 70%? Why not settle for the 100%?"
"I can find someone better, but is he what I really want? I don't think so. I still want him anyway."
"The girl that got away."
"The girl that actually cares."

And 'that girl' could've been any other girl out there. But somehow, her thought is the first thing that came to my mind. What I'm missing is our passion, our joys, our highs, our laughters, our fights, our pain, our shit.

So where is she now?
Well, she is happily taken, i guess. So I've heard quite a few good things about them . She seems so happy about it. And we're talkin', friends, I guess.

So whats the problem?
Here it goes. I want her back, despite the fact that she has a boyfriend. She doesn't feel the same way for me anymore. So I'm stuck. I don't want to be those little kids that go, "I WANT HIM BACK !!! HE IS SO MY FUCKIN LIFE !! HE TOOK A PIECE OF ME, AND OMFG, I AM SO HEART BROKEN :(, LIKE 012909 FOREVER !!!!". Hate those little idiots. But, I guess, its time for me to actually swallow my pride and let it all out.

So here it goes, if you're reading this.
I know you probably wann hear every thought of my mind, but sadly, I am not anywhere near you right now. You're not on either. So, I can not tell you the exact feeling that I feel. But hey, just read this. Look, I do want you back, bad. I want you back badly enough that if your boyfriend decides to beat me up at the end of all this, then that would be okay for me. I can live my life without you, you are not my life. I don't need you in my life either. You are not the oxygen tank of my life. You are not a necessity, or rather something to keep me alive. You are not the best girl out there, and I can find a better girl. But for the past few weeks, I realized that despite all that, I want you. I want you despite the fights, the arguements, the frustrations and the exhaustion. I want you despite the fact that there's a better girl out there waiting to be seized by me, but I won't because you're the one that I want and not her. I want you despite the fact that I look like an idiot running back to an ex girlfriend who won't change her mind after all this, yet still trying anyway. I want you back despite the fact that it hurts me a lot because it seemed that I was a little too late, and waited way too long. And I will fight for you, despite the fact that I am acting like an idiot, because I now know the reason why to fight for something you love. I may be 17 and young, but I'd still like to try. See? I'm crazy over you. I don't know why but I am. I don't expect you to just talk to me and go, "omfg, I want you back too !!". I'm expecting work harder on this one. I'd just.. like to make things right. I don't think everything just died out because we broke up. But I do think that.. I'd treat you way better. If you thought I was amazing, I'd be more than that, every single day. Because, I'd like to beat the best guy you've ever went out with. I'd like to beat him and make it seem like he's an idiot. I'd like to kick his ass with super dooper kamehameha. I'd like to make it seem like his existence is retarded. I'd like to make him look like a punk for taking you for granted, despite the fact that your best one is me. And I can tell you this right now, straight up to your face. I AM BETTER THAN YOUR BEST ONE.

Well then, now you know everything. Whatelse would you like to know?

As Promised

My day was very interesting.
Weh, what can I say?

My sweet misery.
The thought of pain and love all at the same time.
I have no idea what to say.
I feel like an idiot.
Yet, I feel so.. happy and satisfied.

My sweet misery, oh, my loving hate.
I don't even know where I'm at right now.
At the end of the day, I am just that next guy, rather that ex guy.
Though, my blind hope, rather, the weakness of my brain cells,
still keeps me going through, I guess.
And obviously, her.. and what she said, just keeps me going on with all this.
There's stil a lot of work to be done
And I will not back down, I do want this all back.

And at the very end, all that I can say is, I am sorry for the ones that will find my actions both rude and irresponsible.
For the ones that I will hurt and for the ones that I will end up ignoring, I am sorry.

Oh brawling love, Oh loving hate, Oh this sweet misery of fictional facts.

Keep being amazing, grave man :)

Today.

Today is the day that the Lord has made.
Let us rejoice and be glad.

Blah, today is going to be almost as interesting as Tuesday.

Sooner than later.

The girl or the world.
You see, someone got to lose.
I thought I could have it all.
Do I really got to choose?
What good is all the cash if it doesn't buy time.
And what good is being famous if I'm never on your mind.
Nights falling, lights glowing, and I'm just trying to pay the price on.
And I don't want to feel uncomfortable from my ice-shine.
And I aint trying to be without you at the right moments.
Nigga, nice going.
Is it worth it, that decision cause hearts breaking.
I ain't trying to be in that collision.
So I'ma dust my shirt and fix my pants.
Cause I better look good if this is my chance, I swear.

So can you do me a favor if I pull it together.
Make it sooner than later, we won't be here forever.
And I realize I waited too long but please don't move on.
You don't need no one else (No one else)
You don't need no one else, you don't need no one else.
You don't need no one else (Oh oh oh)
You don't need no one else.

Open up.

What would I do?

What would I do without you?
See, I was stupid from running away from this.
I thought I could leave all these concepts behind
Yet somehow, with a glimpse of your image,
I was back entrapped in the thoughts of you.
I was improper and did not realize the pieces that I was missing.
It was you.
The one and only, intimately realistic passion and goal.

You complete the other side of me.
The side of nothingness in my deep blackhole since you've been gone.
The side of intentions with actions that I am only willing to show you.

For, what would I do without the pain that I feel when I am not with you?
What would I do without the misery, when I talk to you before you sleep,
knowing that you are not mine?
And if I I can push the boundaries aside, erase all the letters and put the letters you and I closer, then I would.
If I had the chance to open up the universe, create a wormhole and go back in time when I see you ever moment, then I would.


Allie..
"Do not get mad at me, for the times that I forget about you. And we both know that it will happen."

Keep being amazing, self :)

I have't updated this for so long..

Hello readers ! How are you all doing? :)
I'm pretty.. disappointed and cheesed..
And I feel... really really.. uhg about a few things.

One of them being, a loss of a great person.
A person, whom I didn't have the chance to get to know that well, but still made a good impact in my life. She was my idol. I found her.. amazing beyond measure. Amazingness that cuts through the galaxy. It is amazingness beyond words can explain.

May you rest in peace..
And you will be greatly missed.

With that being said, I hope you enjoy the blessing and greatness of God.

On the better note,

I am still up on casting. And with this video, comes a film that I hope you all will enjoy. It'll be amazing. So people who wants to be in this film, my readers, fans or stalkers, you can call me. Seriously. 416 551 7983.

And oh, eighteen?
Yeah, thats a date to remember.
Note to self: Remember the number 18 :)

Keep being amazing, self :)

For Weekend - Day One

Hi guys ! So, here's a little story.
I am at home, doing what? Well, nothing.
Do you guys want to hear a story? Yes? :)
Alright

So, I've been at home, doin' nothing, right?
Well, I've been talking to a few people, that I thought I was interested with.
I've had... about 4 or 5, including the past.

K, story number one: Past.
Everything has been doing well, I guess.
We've been way better than what we were, that I can assure.

Number two: I was supposed to have a random visitor last night.
Damnit, but yeah, it dint happen cause she got lazy
S'all good

Number three: Spellcheck.
I think you like me? :

Anyway, I'll be in sauga next saturday looking for casts for our upcoming video.
Do tell me if you want to get in this video, 416 551 7983.
Link meh :D

One last thing.
The most consistent thing in life is change. Either we accept change or resist change. Either way, we still cope with change.

Keep being amazing, self :)

Another Project: Casting

Whatsup guys? let me take a break from my stupid rants and ramblings.

Let me tell you about the Egotistic Production's upcoming project.
We are creating a film.
I shall not say what it is.
But we're in casting phase right now.
Since I'm the one in charge of casting, and I'm supposed to be looking for 1983901283901 many people/girls, I need to know who is interested.

This is going to be a pretty nice film and you should hit me up on facebook if you are interested.
Faceboook me - John De Guzman

And you could be one of my stalkers who "add me because their friend thinks I'm cute". Bullshit :) I've had one of those last week/this week lmfao

Anyway, hit me up if you want to be in this film. It's not porno, don't worry.
And preferably, you're a girl, and not a guy..
Then again... LOOOL
Oh, one more thing, preferably, you're a real person and not imaginary. My imaginary girlfriend just said she wanted to be in it. LOL !

AND NO LITTLE KIDS..........
..
...
.....

I swear... that was one of the hardest things to say ... :| LOOL

Anyway, casting phase, be in it. It'll be bomb, and it'll go far.
I'll be around, looking for people, hit me up real soon.
And hope you enjoy the long weekend, only for Canadians LOL :)

And I'll be writing a poem after this post so... read :D

Keep being amazing, self :)

We Made You.

First, shout out to Eminem's new album even though a few people think that his reputation is going down with his tracks, I still find it pretty dope. Relapse, cop it off. May 19th.

Anyway, this is my two-page poetry/letters/stories for what?
Everything.
But since I can't write my own "feelings", I shall copy some from Nicholas Sparks and Walt Whitman.

"The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected. Maybe they have been and will be. Maybe we've lived a thousand lives before this one and in each of them we've found each other. And maybe each time, we've been forced apart for the same reasons. That means that this good-bye is both a good-bye for the past ten thousand years and a prelude to what will come. When I look at you, I see your beauty and grace and know they have grown stronger with every life you have lived. And I know I have spent every life before this one searching for you. Not someone like you, but you, for your soul and mine must always come together. And then, for a reason neither of us understands, we've been forced to say good-bye. I would love to tell you that everything will work out for us, and I promise to do all I can to make sure it does. But if we never meet again and this is truly good-bye, I know we will see each other again in another life. We will find each other again, and maybe the stars will have changed, and we will not only love each other in that time, but for all the times we've had before."

***

I ne'er was struck before that hour
With love so sudden and so sweet,
Her face it bloomed like a sweet flower
And stole my heart away complete.

***

"My dearest,
I don't know what to say anymore except that I couldn't sleep last night because I knew that it is over between us. It is a different feeling for me, one that I never expected, but looking back, I suppose it couldn't have ended another way. You and I were different. We came from different worlds, and yet you were the one who taught me the value of love. you showed me what it was like to care for another, and I am a better man because of it. I don't want you to ever forget that. I am not bitter because of what has happened. On the contrary. I am secure in knowing that what we had was real, and I am knowing that what we had was real, and I am happy we were able to come together for even a short period of time. And if, in some distant place in the future, we see each other in our new lives, I will smile at you with joy, and remember how we spent a summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. And maybe, for a brief moment, you'll feel it too, and you'll smile back, and savor the memories we will always share together. I love you."

***

Be composed -- be at ease with me ...
Not till the sun excludes you do I exclude you,
Not till the waters refuse to glisten for you
and the leaves to rustle for you, do my
words refuse to glisten and rustle for you.

***

Nothing is ever really lost, or can be lost.
No birth, identity, form -- no object of the world,
Nor life, nor force, nor any visible thing;...
The body, sluggish, aged, cold -- the embers left from earlier fires,
... shall duly flame again.

***

No drowning man can know which drop of water
his last breath did stop;

***

When I see you now -- moving slowly with new life growing inside you -- I hope you know how much you mean to me, and how special this year has been. No man is mroe blessed than me, and I love you with all my heart.

***

I love you. I am who I am because of you. You are every reason, every hope, and every dream I've ever had, and no matter what happens to us in the future, every day we are together is the greatest day of my life. I will always be your's. And, my darling, you will always be mine.

***

Please don't be angry with me on days I do not remember you, and we both know they will come. Know that I love you, that I always will and that no matter what happens, know I have led the greatest life possible. My life with you.

***

Love, in these last and tender hours
is sensitive and very pure
Come morning light with soft-lit powers
to awaken love that's ever sure.

***

The body slows with mortal ache, yet my promise
remains true at the closing of our days,
A tender touch that ends with a kiss
will awaken love in joyous ways.

***

Our souls were one, if you must know
and never shall they be apart;
With splendid dawn, your face aglow
I reach for you and find my heart

***

And I thought the movie was the best. I swear, the book is way better. I love it. The Notebook owns. I think I've realized what I'm going to do and what I'm supposed to do.

Keep being amazing, self :)

Completely trippin' out.

Past-out.

I feel nervous around you.

Wired.

Was I wired to be in this situation?
Rubbing alcohol hurts the wound, yet cleans it at the same time.
And I'm there.

He caught himself fighting for control. He hadn't expected this to happen, didnt want it to happen. He hadn't come here for this.. yet...
Yet...
Yet... the feeling went on despite himself. Felt as if he hadn't in months, as if all of his dreams can still come true.
Felt as though he'd finally come home.
Without another word, they came together as if it was the most natural thing in the world.

What can I really do now?

"You can fix anything." - The Sanchez Family

Was I in denial? All that time? All along, when I kept on telling myself that I don't care, nor did it matter to me. Was I in denial? Cause right now, I feel as if the things that I have told myself were all lies. Somehow, everyone and everything around me, is telling to go for what I really want to. And somehow, there's only one in my mind. And as foolish as it may sound, I think I'd like to go for it, now that I've actually taken myself off the situation and know the right things to do. I havent laughed like this, nor talked to anyone so.. naturally. Everything comes so naturally between us. Then again, we don't exist. But we're so good... and as selfish as this may sound, I wann go farther, because that's how I see you. I didn't want to sit beside you because the first thing I would've done was hold your hand and hold you. I'd like to start all over again, show you how much of a better man I am than them, prove to you that I am that better guy and make you realize, I changed..

And now, I'm ready to go for what I want. Keep my eyes in the prize. Because this is me. And the most natural thing that I can think of is being with you.

Snucks, unreal, demented and disfunctional.
And I'll uncover the real me, realizing that there's only you.
Ex? Nah, never. I can never see you that way.
Oh, remmeebr that time, when another one was involved, and I still got you?
Well, let me do it all over again. Because I know I can.

Correct me if I am wrong but, I have proved you wrong way too many times.
I will do it again.

Moderation.

Gotta get this out of my system first:

Cassie's tatas... niicceee (Y)
Respect to whoever hacked her computer
Actually, whoever you are, you're part of my idol lists now.

Life moves on. Let's enjoy this.

Find her.

Crack Open.

Man, vote things today.
Politics even in schools.
I voted for yohan, only because.

Anyway, what happens next?
I think, all I can say is,

I don't want one, don't need one.
But my life is so
And we are so
And you could be

I just want to be in you
Not in you, sexually, because everyone thinks that nowadays
I'd like to be in your mind, and in your thoughts and in your dreams
I'd like to be in your heart, and in your soul
And in that hidden treasure that you keep from everyone else
Becuase I'd like to know you
And be in you, the way no one else have been

Man, what a lonely and hopeless romantic.
Why do I have so much inspiration?

Booo !

So, I finally organized my blospot posts. On the right you will see the groups of posts that I have written.

Aristotle's Words: Poems
Chapters: Stories
Ramblings.com: Random rants
Propaganda: Shotout for random things
Bartender Recipes: Some recipes for drinks and such as
Egotistic Productions: Upcoming projects by the Egotistics

Read and have fun :)

Keep being amazing, self :)

I realized...

Montana, this one's for you.

One more.

I see you walking right beside me.
Angelic beauty, goddess-like strut and your feisty mimic of a swagger.
You look at me, yet don't really see me.
For I am only an affiliate, only a companion and only a comrade.
Compared a celestial being like you, I am only a vagabond, an indigent.
I am nothing.
Blessed be the blind, for he can not be trapped in your glimpse, like I do.
For every time I am, I am reminded of my agenda.
A disguise that I have kept inside, long enough to be forgotten and not be seen.
A secret, embedded deep within the very fabric of my egotism.
My famine for your attention.
This feeling that burns my soul, like the little drops of venom on Loki’s back that trembles the underground and leaves the earth trembling.
That most intimate adrenaline that passes by my brain, stopping me from comprehending anything, leaving me mindless every time I see you.
You put me in a state of no mind.
Especially when I look at your smile; the intricate work of art carved into a beauty by a Michelangelo.
Or your radiant shine, that brightens up the world that I carry on my shoulder, like the lonely titan, Atlas.
But I am still nothing.
I am Samson and you are my hair, and the fate that brings us together, is the Delilah that tricked me.
You are the moon, and I am the Wolverine that walked down the path of human, only to be fooled and not to be able to touch you but only to admire you from the land so far away.
You are highly unattainable.
Only a wish that can be granted by the most generous god.
Yet somehow, I still try.

One more try.

Bleah.

What can I say? I feel weird.
I feel so.. off today, actually.
It's not a bad thing or a good thing or any thing at all.
I just.. feel weird out.
Its as if, all I want to do is sit down, get some rest and do nothing, for the rest of my life.
Why?

It's all this pressure I'm putting on myself.

Am I happy? Yes, very.
But am I frustrated? Yes, very.

Im having a.. war against myself, in the inside, of what's right, and whats I should be doing.
And right now, all I can say is that, I need a long rest. The sun needs to come out so I can go to the beach, spend my time there, and get plenty of amazing sun and relaxation. I gotta stop doing this to myself.

Very nice.

Oh, One more thing.

Keep being amazing, self :)

Exhausted.

One can only tell if pressure will make you or break you.
Right now, pressure is breaking me, tearing me apart, into little bits of pieces.

But only pressure shows the real you. Somehow, it builds you.
If one can cope with pressure, then one can cope with anything.

Right now, it's taking all of my energy.
I am exhausted.

Pressure of keeping that look.
Pressure of having one.
Pressure of getting there.
Pressure of going somewhere in this.

For once, I left a question blank in my physics test.

Talkin' to waste catties is making me feel so waste.
Talkin' to stupid waste catties is making me feel so waste AND stupid.
Talkin' to stupid idiotic waste catties is making me feel so waste AND stupid AND idiotic.

I'm wired, to feel this way.
It's getting into me.
I'm feeling so.. less amazing with everything.

One,
Stop distracting my mind.
I need to focus.

Two,
Stop being stupid.

Three,
I need my fucking phone !
Get the fuck out of my life, already.

Keep being amazing, self :)