2:30 AM Rant: The Best

So, whats my next step?
I actually got none.
Back to the start again.

Cotdamnit, what am I supposed to do.
Im back to confuzzled again.
Mostly because, Im back into doing this... again.
This is the exact same shit that I did.
And here I am, doing it all again.

For goodness sake, when will my fate ever change?
Am I going to be left with this everytime all over again?

"You're the best."
Really now.

This is so idiotic. Idiocracy is not the way to go.
Seriously, I somehow blame myself, from the karma that I put myself in.

Tired, exhausted, and less amazing.

And oh, about your situation, can I say, Karma?
Just realize what you're putting someone else in.
And maybe you'll realize, that you're in the same position.

I'm sorry guys, it's 2:30 AM, I'm on an emo rampage.

Here's a little something something for you girls:

BTC: Hey, how are you? Doing fine? Well, since you don't read my blogspot anyway, let me take this chance to rant about yeah. I wish you can understand, I miss... And anytime that I want to, I can try.. But I can't anymore. I can't let you put me down anymore, cause I've done that, way too many times already. Amd I'm done, you blaming me for everything.. you telling me that it's all my fault. Well, if it was, then, thank God that I at least made you happy. Cause I was "The Best" right? Well, let me take this time to say I'm sorry, that I gave my best into this, and it wasn't enough. I'm sorry that I fucked it up. I'm sorry that I "changed", and that I tried to make it all work, but it just didn't. I'm sorry that you cried for me, and I'm sorry that I told you, I won't let you go, but I have to. I hope you realize, the things that I've ever told you were all true. Thank you for everything. Thank you for the love, the life and the time you've given me. I was lucky enough to have you. I'm sorry that it had to end this way.

RL: Its been a while eh? Im sorry with the shit that I put you through. You did call me "your best", and I've grown to treat you as my closest friend. I did bring you bullshit, and Im sorry that I ever cheated on you. I know, I was still a kid, two years ago, when it all happened, but I feel bad. I feel bad for the shit that I've gotten you through. It was a long-distance relationship, but you were so close to me. And I hope, I still am. You still loved me like amazing. Thank you. And I'm sorry that I left you hanging. I thank you for being that person who stayed through, even after the whole break up shizzle. You stayed around and almost became one of the closest ones.

KUGY: First of all, I'd like to take this time, to actually say sorry to you. All I've done was talk shit about you and not even take the time to appreciate everything that did happen to us. You called me, "The Best", and I thank you for that. I'm sorry that in the end, I was the one who gave up on us. I was the one who cut you off, and almost made it seem like, played you. No, I didn't play you. I was confused of what to do with life. You were nice with everything. I'm sorry that in the end, I ended up talking shit about you. I'm sorry that in the end, it was you that got hurt from the words that I've said. I'm sorry that shit had to happen between your boy and me, just cause of the stupidity that I've brought you. No, you weren't a waste, nor a waste of my time. You helped me learn shit in life, and to be honest wiht you, I'd like to thank you. Thank you for the time, the laughter, the life and the love.

GRY: I can't believe the things that you've told me. I think you should be happy. Keep doing what makes you happy. Keep doing everything and anything that you actually want to do, and not what others say. Keep hanging on. I like the way you think. It reminds me of how much cheesy I've become. Stop procrastinating. Its weird that you think i'm "the best". Well, how bout this, I can be YOUR "the best" :) And you can still ask me out anytime.

Anyway, that's the last of my rant, the next few days will be, "Suck it up" days LOL
So, wish me luck :)

Season High

There's a life-lesson in the end, so you should keep reading since I'm spending this time to review the raptors game instead of actually STARTING my lab.

So, the Raptors won four straight in a row with their game today against the Chicago Bulls.
What I think?

They COULD'VE gotten into the playoffs..
Could've...

Let me put it this way.
The Chicago Bulls is36-39, for the idiots out there, it means 36 wins and 39 losses.
They're last at the playoff spot but, doing way better than the Raptors.
On the other hand, the Toronto Raptors is 28-45 and second last in the Conference.

Now, the Raptors kicked Chicago Bulls' ass with a 5 point lead and 18 point lead at the most. What does this mean? That THEY CAN PLAY. Now, why ARE they NOT in the MOTHERFUCKING PLAYOFFS SPOT?!

One reason, A LITTLE TOO LATE.

The addition of Pops Mensah - Bonsou is probably one that the Toronto Raptors has been waiting for. He gives the team a great depth, a pretty good highflyer, good rebounder, has a lot of focus AND determination. Something that the raptors has been missing since Jermaine O'neal got injured and since Sam Mitchell flunked his career. More to that, the addition of Shawn Marion, was a no-brainer for the team. They have been needing some defensive help, and Shawn Marion is here. Even though, most of us already know that after this season, he maybe be leaving the Toronto Raptors, though I hope not.

What does this mean?

That the raptors COULD'VE gotten in the playoffs but why not? They slumped themselves with their losses, and due to this, lost focus and did not do what they're supposed to do, MOVE THE FUCK ON.

They were stuck with the thought of losing so much, that they basically slumped themselves into losing streaks that put themselves down, almost as near as the Washington Wizards, who are last in the Conference, but DO have a good reason, because Gilbert Arenas did not play for the whole season, until yesterday.

And now that they DID find the focus to play hard, its way too late. I mean, I do believe that its better late than never but, if they just had moved on with their lives, played their heart out and did all that they can do, then they would've at least gotten into the playoffs. They could've gotten something way better than now.

So what am I saying.
I'm not hating on the Raptors, as disappointed and ashamed I am to say this, I am a fan. But, I do hope that this would become a life-lesson for everyone of us. One thing I learn in life, is that it moves on. It'll leave you hopeless and disappointed, it don't care. When the opportunity comes up, grab it with everything you have, no matter what. Don't let anything or anyone hold you down. Opportunity knocks only once and after that, its too late. Live life as if, today is your last. Grab the best now, and leave the rest to God, for later. Then, maybe, you'd get a trophy, way better than what you're expecting.

Because what.

Amazing people deserves the best.

Oh, this ain't for anyone in particular, please note that. I just thought about it, since I was in this position, about.. how many hours or days ago. This is why I'm moving on with my past relationship. I deserve the best, nothing less.

Q & A

Well, here it goes. My answers in life.

Number One answer:

I found the best answer out of everything in life. Family. They're the love of my life. No homo or all homo? LOL

Number Two answer:

Life moves on. Seriously, I'm not going to back in the past, and rekindle whatever happened. It was all done. It's going to get worse. That's life, as we grow, things will get harder and harder. But I found my passion, this is me. I'm willing to stick through shit. I'm willing to stick with my family when a nuke is about to hit us. I stick through. I'm not a quitter, unless you quit on me. If you couldn't handle now, how can you handle later on? That doesn't change the way I think about you. Amazing.

Number Three answer:

So, apparently, I'm sticking through. Why? Because I think amazing people should stick together. Even though Ne-Yo wrote a song just for you. Just .. don't waste my time :)




That wasn't cheesy, was it?
How about, to even it out, here's a treat for you guys:

http://egotisticproductions.blogspot.com

Seriously, you should check it out. It's fucking amazing. It's more amazing than finding out that your boobs went from AA to 36B.

And one more treat for you guys, another drink recipe :)

After Sex

Ingredients:
2 cl Vodka
1 cl Creme de Banane
Orange Juice

Directions:
Pour the vodka and creme de banane over some ice cubes in a tall glass and fill up with juice. For garnish, powder the top of glass with grenadine and sugar.

Note: use a highball glass for this one.

Oh, one more thing.
I added an imeem playlist just now ->
For now, it's The Greenhouse Effect Mixtape by Asher Roth.
I think he's pretty ill with it. So, he's worth being put in my blogspot.

Last but not the least..
I still didnt start my lab that is due tomorow. 12 questions and 2 graph-table, and Im hungry as hell.
Hungry for what?
Hungry for AMAZINGNESS :)

Two seconds of famous thanks to KidFamous

Yeah, well, another post, once again.
Can't promise this is the last one for the day.
As you can see, I have no life at all LOL

Well, anyway, I've been going around youtube today, because I'm home, for once.
And I remembered a canadian artist who goes by the name of KidFamous.
He's over the top, been around, everywhere in Canada.
He was suspected as ghost writing for Jay Z.
His lyrics are dope, his flow is dope and on top of that, he rhymes different.
Not your usual mainstream artist.
Though, I highly doubt that he can freestyle.
But hey, his shit is dope as it is.

So, one day, me and my friend went to the barber shop right, and we had our cuts.
Somehow, on the same day, KidFamous ended up being there too.
Which is, really, weird, cause who the hell is this anyway right.
So, he asked if its okay if we were to be in his video.
And somehow, a month after, we were in his music video.
Its at 2:25 or something like that. Check it out.



More to that, he has a new single that I really think you should check out.



Well, thats it for Kid Famous. Check him out. He's pretty dope.

Paradise.

Just to get away from the world that I've been writing about.
I'm going to post three different kinds of drink recipe.
Well, including that I post earlier, there would be four for the day.

First one:

Frozen Girl Scout

Ingredients:
1 splash milk
1 1/2 oz Green Creme de Menthe
3 scoops of Chocolate Ice Cream

Directions:
Blend it all together.
To get the right amount of shake, pour more or less milk.

Note: This drink does not have any liquor in it. Though, the drink taste really good as it is.
Bartenders make non-liquor drinks too.

Chocolate Orgasm

Ingredients:
1 shot Kahlua
1 shot Cherry Vodka
2 shots Chilled Espresso
4-6 oz Chocolate Milk

Directions:
Stir with spoon. Don't shake.

And for the Tequila lovers:

Cactus Juice

Ingredients:
1 oz Tequila
1/2 oz Amaretto
Fill with sweet and sour

Directions:
Fill glass with ice. Pour the ingredients.


Okay, well, that's three for you. The first two ones are shakes/floaters. They taste really sweet. I can just guess that both drinks are poured in a tall glass. A tall glass is usually a glass that you can find in your cabinet and shits. The last one is a cocktail drink. Its also poured in a tall glass. One of these days, I'll post some martini recipes, but for now, we'll go with cocktails and shakes, only because I prefer the shakes :)

On another note, Egotistic Productions :)

Madness from four hour sleep.

Somehow, I kinda thought things through.

I made my decision.

Which y'all would find out... probably later on the day.
Still too lazy to write my detailed answer.

Oh yeah, I'm staying at home today.
Got a 17 Question, 2 graph-tables physics lab to do that is due on monday.
So, I'll have fun while y'all chill around :)

And to leave off this post, here's a drink recipe called A Smile.

A Smile

Ingredients:
1 1/2 oz Vodka
1 1/2 oz Light Rum
1 1/2 oz Creme de Cassis
6 oz Orange Juice
6 oz double-strength Lemonade
1 oz Grenadine
1 scoop Whip Cream

Instructions:
With three ice cubes put vodka, light rum, cassis, orange juice, and frozen lemonade made at double strength into a shaker. Shake well. Place half the grenadine in the bottom of each white wine glass, pour in shaken mixture till withine inch of rim. With a large spoon drop whipped cream carefully in glass. Take small spoon spread to all the edges and to look nice. Serve. Makes two glasses.

Note: This is not one of the normal drinks that I usually make. It's pretty amazing though.

Damned.

I'm forever damned with the past.
Well, apparently, that's what it seems like.
No matter who I talk to, somehow, the past has to come back up.

And thanks, D, you got me thinkin' about it again.
But real talks though, I don't know.
I don't know what the hell to do.

More to that, the gay guy is real inconsistent.
And I took a 50/50 chance, and guess what.
At least.. 8/9 was to be amazing.
If you know what I'm saying.

Montana, I think I wan go there.
Pretty sick though.
But hey, I think I'll give it a try.
Take my mind off these fools.

And I just heard the most profound shit today:

"Just do how you do, if it's not enough, it's not worth it"
- Joseph Franco

Pretty dope.
And I got my own quote:

"I'll keep on doing me. Hate me, love me, but this is me. I'm amazing."
- John Snucks De Guzman

Waste.

Is it all a waste?
That's what they keep on telling me.
And realize how, my mom even think so (Angelo asked her).
Weird.

So what do I do?
Either one: Stop wasting time
Two: Keep going on

Which one do I pick? Who knows.
You'll find out sooner or later.

And oh, you got no jokes :)

Angered.

I am angered due to stupidity of my own self.
My God, oh how I screwed up my 97% Physics average over.. a stupid equation.

On the other note, I feel good. I felt good walkin' out today.
Probably because I slept at 10:00 PM.
Woke up at 8:00 AM
Yeah, I'm starting to be a lazy ass.

Oh, Ichigo from Bleach turns into a hollow that kills an idiot with no mercy.
And Naruto went back to his sage mode and is about to kill pain.
Fun.

Three Quotes for the day since I'm angered:

"We must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us."
- Joseph Campbell

My opinion about waiting:
"Too many people go through life WAITING for things to happen instead of MAKING them happen"
- Sasha Avezedo

Actually, better yet,
"Waiting is painful. Forgetting is painful. But not knowing which to do is the worse kind of suffering."
- Paulo Coelho

"Never tell a young person that anything cannot be done. God may have been waiting centuries for someone ignorant enough of the impossible to do that very thing."
- G.M. Trevalyan

I'm not cheesy.
I don't say cheesy shit, I speak the truth.
Idiots are the ones who can't see the difference :)

Barracade

I found myself at home, for the whole day.
Weird, ain't it?

And for once, I have nothing to say.

Born for Greatness

Cheesy Blog comin' your way.
This only comes every once in a while.

People say I'm a narcissist.
People say I'm egotistic.
People say I'm cocky.
And most of all, people say I'm full of myself.

Am I really?

I beg to differ.

How can you love someone without loving yourself?
How can you take care of someone, without taking care of yourself?
How can you change the world without changing yourself?
How can you find what is lost, if you can't find yourself?

Okay, I have people beside me for everything. True.
And I treat them as good as I treat myself.
I find myself, amazing, and I people around me amazing.

Howelse can I see the greatness in everyone, without seeing first, in myself?
It's not ego. It's finding happiness without worry, or such as.

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On the other note, I feel like shit. I feel bad. Not just that, I feel, weird.
Erks.

I feel so weird. My family has been fucked, once and again. How do I react?
I'm the calm one in the family, and only talks shit through.
And to be honest with you, it seems like I can't talk anyone out of this.
Too many things on my mind.

But I got you fam, I got you. I'm tellin' you, despite bullshit, its just us fam who got each other no matter what. Thats how we are. We'll stick together like glue. Man, fuck what they say, we got the world in our hands. No one can stop us. Bruh, I got you, I'll do shit for ya. I'll fcken die for ya, no jokes. Mann, we got this on our back.

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On to the next note:
I can deal with bitches.
Can't deal with idiots.
Stop talkin' shit, you fuckbag

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I think I like her....multiple screaming orgasm :)

Still got that song stuck on my head.
That song, Knocked you down by Keri Hilson.

For some reason, I'm still stuck with that thought.
Last night was weird, and intense.

Thanks for everything and having my back always.

I'm on addiction mode with this blogspot shit.
In three days, I've posted about.. 6 times? LOL

And well, I'll put up one of the recipes for a Screaming Orgasm.
A cocktail drink for people who loves chocolate and coffee.



Multiple Screaming Orgasm

Copy and paste the link below for a video:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=JVxvDlY9h5c

Ingredients:

1/2 oz Amaretto
1/2 oz Irish Cream (Bailey's)
1/2 oz Kahlua
1/2 oz Rum, light
1/2 oz Vodka
1 oz Half and half

Directions:
Mix everything with ice on a cocktail shaker.
Use a tall Collin's glass.
Serve.

I'm in love with you

I think, they were given under appreciation by me for the times that they've been there. Appreciation that I should be giving them every single day. Man, I owe you guys gratitude and love, for all eternity. First and foremost, my parents, because without 'em, I won't be here. And I love 'em to death, for keeping me both agitated and happy. They brought me up well, and what can I say, without them, I wouldn't be who I am. I love them with all my heart, even if at times we get into arguments. I love them.

Crack Addicts Fam: Man, bruhs, I underestimated us. Im sorry for that. For the whole year that I've been gone, I am real sorry. I now realize that in the end, there's only us. Despite the bitches, the hos, the sluts, the idiots, the fucktards, and the real girls, there's only you, you and me. Man, without you guys, I dont even know what I'm going to do with my life. Y'all keep me up on my toes and keep me going on with life. You guys are the fam. Man, I treat you guys like my blood brothers. Mann, we'll be big one day, I fucking promise. Egotistic in EVERY MOFCKIN BOOOK. You'll see. Man, you guys are amazing. I love you both with all my heart and soul LOL, no homo. But straight up, you guys are FUCKIN AMAZING. FUCK WHAT THEY SAY, WE GOT THE WORLD IN OUR HANDS.

And I tell you. Family Over EVERY fucking THING

Say whats real

Why do I feel so alone
Like everybody passing through the studio
Is in character as if we acting out a movie role
Talking bullshit as if it was for you to know
And I don't have the heart to give these
Bitch ass niggas the cue to go
So they stick around kicking out feedback
And I entertaining as if I need that
I had a talk with my uncle and he agreed that
My privacy about the only thing I need back
But it's hard to think of them polite flows
Mr. fano poloto suits on your night clothes
And jordan sweat suits are your flight clothes
And you still make it even when they say your flight closed
Eyes hurting from the camera phone light shows
Life was so full
Now this shits just been light pole
Always said I'd say it all on the right track
But in this game u only lose when you fight back
Black diamond bracelets
Showing you the basics
I can't live and hold the camara
Someone gotta tape dis
I make hits and like a bitch
Just married I ain't miss
24 hours from greatness
I'm that close to
Don't ever forget the moment
You began to doubt
Transitioning from fitting in to standing out
Los angeles, cabanas or atlanta south
Watchin home shows
Embarrassed to pull my camera out
And my mother embarased
To put my phantom out
So I park about 5 houses down
She said I shouldn't have until I have the crown
But I don't wanna feel the need to wear disguises around
So she wonder where my mind is and counts in the minus
But yet I'm rolling round the fuckin city like your highness
Got niggas reactin without a sinus
Cause what I'm working with is timeless
And promoters trying to get me out to they club
And say I have fun but I can't imagine how
Cause I just see my ex-girl
Standing with my next girl
Standing with the girl that I'm fuckin right now
And shit could get weird unless they all down
And so I stay clear
We from a small town
And everybody talks and everybody listen
And somehow the truth just always comes up missing
I've always been something dat these lables can't buy
Especially if they tryin to take a peice of my soul
And still b only tellin tales "damn drake fly"
And he just be like "silly mother fucker I know"
That was your bad
How could you pass up on em?
He just take the records
And he gas up on em
Wayne will prolly put a million cash up on em
Surprised no one ever put your ass up on em
Oh they did pole
At least they try to
And that's what happens
When you spitting what's inside you
But slip up and shoot the wrong fucking video
And they think they can market you
However they decide to naww
Before they told me to do me
And don't listen to anybody that knew me
Cause who of known me would
Mean that there's a new me
And if you think I've changed in the slightest
Could of fooled me
Baa into my city I'm da 2-3
Drug dealers live vicariously through me
I quit school and is not because I'm lazy
I'm just not the social type
And campus life is crazy understand
I could get money with my eyes closed
Lost some of my hottest versus down at cabo
So if you find a blackberry with the sides scroll
Sell that mothafucka to any rapper that I know
Cause they need it much more than I ever will
I got new shit
I'm gettin better still
Little niggas put my name in their verses
Cause they girlfriend put my ass on a pedestal
Future said cause it's ye shit you better kill
And I think it's got them making of a legend feel
Problem with these other niggas they
Ain't never real
Yea... that's all I can say

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