My Love Story.

It's always been like this right?
We started off with a smile on your face, on the same day, with tears in your eyes.
That was how we started.

You saw your fault.
But did I see mine?

They said it was my fault for getting in this.
He said, "You know how she is. Let her cool off."
And he's right. I do know how she is. She overreacts a lot about every single thing.

I remember, one time, she got so cheesed that I thought about taking in my ex's baby if she was pregnant, since she wanted to have an abortion and I was only there to save the child. She yelled at me over and over again. She wouldn't stop despite the fact that I tried to explain why. Even then, that was my fault, because I didn't even think of her, right..?

And well, breaking up on her two hours before her birthday was pretty stupid too. Because, she thought about what I think yet still wanted to go and move. What was I supposed to feel? I felt pissed off. The person who was there behind her back through shit and out of nowhere, she'd want to leave me. I felt like shit. I overreacted. So true.

We both overreact, don't we? But this means nothing to me. The pain, the heartache, the tears, the bullshit, it means nothing to me. I can say about more things, those times when I'd get pissed that you'd call someone else for help while staying in my house while I try to help you and you'd be happy talkin' to that person and not with me, despite the fact that I just argued with my parents just to take you in? Or how about those times when you'd get pissed at me for the times that I was being stupid.. I'd actually pick one but I couldn't make up my mind which to put. Yeah, there was so much of my bullshit. Or how about the times when I'd go through shit with your mom, with my mom, with your parents and my parents?

I thought about it. Why do I stick through this? Why do I stay with you?

You asked me why I love you? I love you because you make me happy. I love you because you're the definition of my happiness, which is why I tried to get you back after three months, despite the fact that it was almost impossible. When I wake up, I wake up thinking to myself about the shit I went through just to get back with you, and how I shouldn't take you for granted and waste this chance that I have. Before I go to sleep, I think about how and what we'll do tomorow, how we'll be, if we'll get better and better. Yeah, I look so obssessed. I'm not, I promise. I go through your shit and your parents' shit and my parents' shit for the fact that I love you that much. I'm always excited to see you. I can't sleep at night before I mission to see you because I'm always thinking of what we'll do that day and how we get to chill and whatnot and in return, I end up falling asleep on the subway and on the bus. You don't get it yet? Okay. Because of you, I started praying again. So do you get it yet? Okay, how about this. I love you because you're as amazing as it can get. You push me off the edge everytime you get pissed and over react about little things. You push me to get better and better and better.

Do you get it yet?

I can never get comfortable with you. Never.
And it's the best feeling ever since you know how I am when I get comfortable.
Thats why I can never take you for granted.

But do you know what you got?
You got a stupid douchebag who makes mistakes, who doesn't know what he wants rather than what we have, who is so idiot that you just laugh at how stupid he is, who is so cheesy, so obsessive, and so fucking ridiculous because his gotdamn arguments are as stupid as it can get. You got a guy TRIES to listen to you, tries to hear you out, and just tries his best to make it all better by explaining to you the shit that happened, but that's not what you wann hear. You got a guy who doesn't know what you wann hear when you fight. You got a guy who chokes everytime you fight.

Yeah, that's what you got.. or that's what you think you got.

You got a guy who knows exactly how to treat you. Despite his stupidity, he knows what you are and who you are and that things will work out despite how stupid the shit is and how complicated it is. A guy who tries to listen to you everytime you fight, and does not even try to defend himself, but rather, just tries to explain what's happening. A guy who knows that we both over react about nothing and takes in your harshest words. His patience for you is unlimited and will deal with you no matter how hard the situation is. A guy who will be right beside you despite the fact that everyone's already telling him to leave, including his family.

Things have changed.
My promises, I've kept them. Things WILL be different, and they have been. But sometimes, we have misunderstandings, and I'll be making mistakes.

That's 'Ang Love Story Ko'. That's how I am and the story of my life for the past year. And hopefully, many more years to come.