I have't updated this for so long..

Hello readers ! How are you all doing? :)
I'm pretty.. disappointed and cheesed..
And I feel... really really.. uhg about a few things.

One of them being, a loss of a great person.
A person, whom I didn't have the chance to get to know that well, but still made a good impact in my life. She was my idol. I found her.. amazing beyond measure. Amazingness that cuts through the galaxy. It is amazingness beyond words can explain.

May you rest in peace..
And you will be greatly missed.

With that being said, I hope you enjoy the blessing and greatness of God.

On the better note,

I am still up on casting. And with this video, comes a film that I hope you all will enjoy. It'll be amazing. So people who wants to be in this film, my readers, fans or stalkers, you can call me. Seriously. 416 551 7983.

And oh, eighteen?
Yeah, thats a date to remember.
Note to self: Remember the number 18 :)

Keep being amazing, self :)

For Weekend - Day One

Hi guys ! So, here's a little story.
I am at home, doing what? Well, nothing.
Do you guys want to hear a story? Yes? :)
Alright

So, I've been at home, doin' nothing, right?
Well, I've been talking to a few people, that I thought I was interested with.
I've had... about 4 or 5, including the past.

K, story number one: Past.
Everything has been doing well, I guess.
We've been way better than what we were, that I can assure.

Number two: I was supposed to have a random visitor last night.
Damnit, but yeah, it dint happen cause she got lazy
S'all good

Number three: Spellcheck.
I think you like me? :

Anyway, I'll be in sauga next saturday looking for casts for our upcoming video.
Do tell me if you want to get in this video, 416 551 7983.
Link meh :D

One last thing.
The most consistent thing in life is change. Either we accept change or resist change. Either way, we still cope with change.

Keep being amazing, self :)

Another Project: Casting

Whatsup guys? let me take a break from my stupid rants and ramblings.

Let me tell you about the Egotistic Production's upcoming project.
We are creating a film.
I shall not say what it is.
But we're in casting phase right now.
Since I'm the one in charge of casting, and I'm supposed to be looking for 1983901283901 many people/girls, I need to know who is interested.

This is going to be a pretty nice film and you should hit me up on facebook if you are interested.
Faceboook me - John De Guzman

And you could be one of my stalkers who "add me because their friend thinks I'm cute". Bullshit :) I've had one of those last week/this week lmfao

Anyway, hit me up if you want to be in this film. It's not porno, don't worry.
And preferably, you're a girl, and not a guy..
Then again... LOOOL
Oh, one more thing, preferably, you're a real person and not imaginary. My imaginary girlfriend just said she wanted to be in it. LOL !

AND NO LITTLE KIDS..........
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...
.....

I swear... that was one of the hardest things to say ... :| LOOL

Anyway, casting phase, be in it. It'll be bomb, and it'll go far.
I'll be around, looking for people, hit me up real soon.
And hope you enjoy the long weekend, only for Canadians LOL :)

And I'll be writing a poem after this post so... read :D

Keep being amazing, self :)

We Made You.

First, shout out to Eminem's new album even though a few people think that his reputation is going down with his tracks, I still find it pretty dope. Relapse, cop it off. May 19th.

Anyway, this is my two-page poetry/letters/stories for what?
Everything.
But since I can't write my own "feelings", I shall copy some from Nicholas Sparks and Walt Whitman.

"The reason it hurts so much to separate is because our souls are connected. Maybe they have been and will be. Maybe we've lived a thousand lives before this one and in each of them we've found each other. And maybe each time, we've been forced apart for the same reasons. That means that this good-bye is both a good-bye for the past ten thousand years and a prelude to what will come. When I look at you, I see your beauty and grace and know they have grown stronger with every life you have lived. And I know I have spent every life before this one searching for you. Not someone like you, but you, for your soul and mine must always come together. And then, for a reason neither of us understands, we've been forced to say good-bye. I would love to tell you that everything will work out for us, and I promise to do all I can to make sure it does. But if we never meet again and this is truly good-bye, I know we will see each other again in another life. We will find each other again, and maybe the stars will have changed, and we will not only love each other in that time, but for all the times we've had before."

***

I ne'er was struck before that hour
With love so sudden and so sweet,
Her face it bloomed like a sweet flower
And stole my heart away complete.

***

"My dearest,
I don't know what to say anymore except that I couldn't sleep last night because I knew that it is over between us. It is a different feeling for me, one that I never expected, but looking back, I suppose it couldn't have ended another way. You and I were different. We came from different worlds, and yet you were the one who taught me the value of love. you showed me what it was like to care for another, and I am a better man because of it. I don't want you to ever forget that. I am not bitter because of what has happened. On the contrary. I am secure in knowing that what we had was real, and I am knowing that what we had was real, and I am happy we were able to come together for even a short period of time. And if, in some distant place in the future, we see each other in our new lives, I will smile at you with joy, and remember how we spent a summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. And maybe, for a brief moment, you'll feel it too, and you'll smile back, and savor the memories we will always share together. I love you."

***

Be composed -- be at ease with me ...
Not till the sun excludes you do I exclude you,
Not till the waters refuse to glisten for you
and the leaves to rustle for you, do my
words refuse to glisten and rustle for you.

***

Nothing is ever really lost, or can be lost.
No birth, identity, form -- no object of the world,
Nor life, nor force, nor any visible thing;...
The body, sluggish, aged, cold -- the embers left from earlier fires,
... shall duly flame again.

***

No drowning man can know which drop of water
his last breath did stop;

***

When I see you now -- moving slowly with new life growing inside you -- I hope you know how much you mean to me, and how special this year has been. No man is mroe blessed than me, and I love you with all my heart.

***

I love you. I am who I am because of you. You are every reason, every hope, and every dream I've ever had, and no matter what happens to us in the future, every day we are together is the greatest day of my life. I will always be your's. And, my darling, you will always be mine.

***

Please don't be angry with me on days I do not remember you, and we both know they will come. Know that I love you, that I always will and that no matter what happens, know I have led the greatest life possible. My life with you.

***

Love, in these last and tender hours
is sensitive and very pure
Come morning light with soft-lit powers
to awaken love that's ever sure.

***

The body slows with mortal ache, yet my promise
remains true at the closing of our days,
A tender touch that ends with a kiss
will awaken love in joyous ways.

***

Our souls were one, if you must know
and never shall they be apart;
With splendid dawn, your face aglow
I reach for you and find my heart

***

And I thought the movie was the best. I swear, the book is way better. I love it. The Notebook owns. I think I've realized what I'm going to do and what I'm supposed to do.

Keep being amazing, self :)

Completely trippin' out.

Past-out.

I feel nervous around you.

Wired.

Was I wired to be in this situation?
Rubbing alcohol hurts the wound, yet cleans it at the same time.
And I'm there.

He caught himself fighting for control. He hadn't expected this to happen, didnt want it to happen. He hadn't come here for this.. yet...
Yet...
Yet... the feeling went on despite himself. Felt as if he hadn't in months, as if all of his dreams can still come true.
Felt as though he'd finally come home.
Without another word, they came together as if it was the most natural thing in the world.

What can I really do now?

"You can fix anything." - The Sanchez Family

Was I in denial? All that time? All along, when I kept on telling myself that I don't care, nor did it matter to me. Was I in denial? Cause right now, I feel as if the things that I have told myself were all lies. Somehow, everyone and everything around me, is telling to go for what I really want to. And somehow, there's only one in my mind. And as foolish as it may sound, I think I'd like to go for it, now that I've actually taken myself off the situation and know the right things to do. I havent laughed like this, nor talked to anyone so.. naturally. Everything comes so naturally between us. Then again, we don't exist. But we're so good... and as selfish as this may sound, I wann go farther, because that's how I see you. I didn't want to sit beside you because the first thing I would've done was hold your hand and hold you. I'd like to start all over again, show you how much of a better man I am than them, prove to you that I am that better guy and make you realize, I changed..

And now, I'm ready to go for what I want. Keep my eyes in the prize. Because this is me. And the most natural thing that I can think of is being with you.

Snucks, unreal, demented and disfunctional.
And I'll uncover the real me, realizing that there's only you.
Ex? Nah, never. I can never see you that way.
Oh, remmeebr that time, when another one was involved, and I still got you?
Well, let me do it all over again. Because I know I can.

Correct me if I am wrong but, I have proved you wrong way too many times.
I will do it again.

Moderation.

Gotta get this out of my system first:

Cassie's tatas... niicceee (Y)
Respect to whoever hacked her computer
Actually, whoever you are, you're part of my idol lists now.

Life moves on. Let's enjoy this.

Find her.